Monday, February 23, 2004

Happiness in slavery: a take on existentialism (reposted with grammar correction, first part of 3)

I'm not afraid of being stuck anymore. No one can make you stuck. (The world belongs to me. I'm going to explore the whole world? Fuck yes. I have the euphoria of realizing all my childhood dreams. I've given myself permission to experience anything I want, and everything. I generate perpetual amusement for myself. I am totally in touch with what it means to make choices. I own the universe).

There is nothing you can trust besides your own ability to experience. You can't trust in a "prophet." You can say you have faith and you believe what will happen once you die. You can believe in repenting.... but the past is only imaginary, it cannot be real.

Because of being mortal. That is the definition of mortality: living only a brief period in a universe that has been there before you arrive. If you never break free of timeframes then your time to be alive is so short. The only way to have faith is to DENY your own self, like to say you trust the "prophet" or to say you KNOW something is true, is to deny the undeniable fact that it is impossible to KNOW anything.

It is denying your personal experiences in favor of someone else's choice... you can own yourself OR your church, cult, career can own you. To truly own yourself you must be in full command of your experience centers. You must be metacognitive. You must master the faculties of thought. You must feel all there is to feel.

Because the universe infinitely unknown, you have to deny that infinity to quantify any kind of belief in history, religion, your childhood, and so forth.

History is not real. It is myth. It is the collective memories of mankind as it stands when your consciousness enters the world. All there is in the world is things to experience.

You take everything in that you wish. It is entirely your choice of what experiences mean. You are free to think about experience with any angle. The true journey of life is at its most perfect form, the everyday implementation of your recognition that memories cannot be real. The real quest to learn what it means to be alive is to explore the world. You must forsake prophets and afterlives.

slave screams he spends his life learning conformity slave screams he claims he has his own identity slave screams hes going to cause the system to fall slave screams but hes glad to be chained to that wall

You can choose to be happy chained to a wall. You can make your own chains, you can devise them and forge them and fasten them but when you get down to it chaining yourself is rejecting your own authority and accepting something else's..... god, prophets, lawmakers, parents, administrators, or whoever. An imaginary character. I trust me only. To trust another authority is to create certainty where there can be none.

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Part 2:

according to this universe's history (on my very limited picture of it), evolution and change has been rather slow in the grand timeline as far as science can see.. just recently have we innovated past the point that survival no longer has to be the overall purpose of human existence. the whole world is connected now. in the imaginary past (a theoretical previous time period, and its description of its state of development or progress [shaping]) every civilization, village, household, organism, and so on (down to molecule or energy field and even smaller) was the entire universe for its characters. the universe is growing, in other words. we are constantly forming new connections, forging new paths, and defeating more, increasingly long-standing, barriers. i think the rate of evolution is going to increase dramatically now, and all dominating authority structures that had been able to propagate themselves in the past will be undermined merely by the nature of the human connectedness that now exists, and ultimately will fall apart and cease to have any hold on anyone. authority structures are headed towards becoming obsolete. like music retail stores, for one example. they are going thru the same consequence that typewriter manufacturers experienced with the advent of computers, wordprocessing, and personal printers. the new competitor is independent art, free music published by artists who create because creating, they have discovered (or remembered, since noone knows anything, they only remember. memory is functionally useless beyond the basic structures required to interpret sensory information. do we really need a sense of where we've been and where we are going? it is possible to deny the past any authority and journey towards the future without a destination) is purposeful and human. the commercialised music cannot compete, though it might, except that a new authority structure of the common people, making public something was previously private and controlled (under the hold of strong authority structures, record companies), through connectedness - file sharing. digitization is spreading further to all the realms of sensory experience. the more digitized this universe becomes, the more free its collective inhabitants will be.

each life of my generation can either chain to the walls of the old ways, the rules of existence, the what it means to live the american dream, or else they can give priority to the greatest authority they have, their human sensory experience abilities, and break free from the prison of timeframes, the pressure to succeed, the urge to participate in controlled economies, and press forward into the formulation, the true emergence of the real human "dream" but rather, as the american way is a dream, the true human way will be reality. true purposeful human reality is to come forth in this era of earth. the realest of reality will conquer the most constrictive of dreamscapes. reality becomes the human dreamscape. reality becomes a place in which anything is literally possible, and all things are achievable. all things are reduced to their pure, authoritative form: pure experience. outside authority, regulation, is squelched. humans live free and truly choose their manner of existing.

this is the logical solution to the problem of scarcity. scarcity, in this most recent era that is passing away, has been fabricated by authority structures (whereas in the imaginary past [the infancy of the universe - anytime prior to present is infancy because it is only remembered but not experienced by all inhabitants] scarcity was just the natural occuring predicament in the absence of innovation. soon, all WILL be able to have everything. there will be infinite sustenance to go around. infinite comfort. infinite joy. each persons gain will be to noone's loss. there will only be growth, and no decay. freedom spawns innovation. the inevitable result is utopia.

a foundation of introspection leads to the logical emergence of the true human urge for connectedness. my childhood is more or less only remembered. it was only very partially experienced, because of the nature of isolation, both from other characters of the environment and internally, the separateness of the body's conscious functions. a childhood of emptiness and chemicals, allowed the entity of my own personal self to regulate its own evolution; now, i stand poised at the pinnacle, the perch from which i can freely set in to motion the obtaining of anything i could possibly desire. i am on the highest point of the landscape of my life. i am aware of the places i remember being, and i have ideas of places i'd like to make stops at (fantasies - my own facets of reality that i have created - or new rememberances - fresh origins, infancys that are shaping up to become free and real and purposeful and enlightened);
an infancy of isolation and self-examination, regardless of the fires of oppositional authorities the parties all fighting for control of the minds, the parents and the activists and the governments and the conquistadors and the businesses and the appetites and the curiosities, leads consciousness to a healthy realm of connectibility. a world that began in disconnection (right from the very nature of its origin[catalyst, parent, creator, or whatever one might call it]) has refined itself and united itself. it has by introspective, disconnected, un-unified, ----alone--- existence conglomorated and centralised more or less into a whole. the next step is either to eliminate all remaining enemies (the weak are eliminated - the old weak have become the new strong) or else to betray its own progress, as inhabitants are won over, siezed, horded, and enslaved increasingly by the deconstructing, the bacteria, the parasites, of authority structures.

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