4 days. 615 miles.... This is all that potentially stands between me and the start of the greatest happiness imaginable. The weight of the extreme potential energy for either massive fulfillment or absolute, complete, will-to-live crushing defeat has been slowing my mind for 2 days now, ever since experiencing the thrill of the first moment that Trent Reznor stepped onto the stage in West Palm Beach to kick off the 2009 Wave Goodbye tour..
We need to get to Albuquerque. This same thing happened to me when it was Las Vegas and we were flying there. However I was simply able to dismiss the very minor risks of the flight crashing or otherwise failing due to their heavy unlikelihood. I feel like I'm gambling much more heavily this time around. In actual reality it is probably more likely that we get hit by another car than a catastrophic breakdown or tire malfunction. I am just so very aware of the epic battle between the two possible outcomes here, dancing in their delicate yet terrifying combat inside my imagination.
By the rules of variance I will feel so much better once we make it to Albuquerque because it will be so much more unlikely at at that point to experience any car trouble on the way to phoenix or las vegas, in addition to the hugely significant triumph which will be ours by then from the experience of the Albuquerque show.Let's pretend that we are on a game show, and we are presented with 1,000,000 doors.
Behind 999,999 of them, there is nothing.
Behind 1 of them, there is certain doom.
(This is starting to feel like we are inside a David Lynch dreamscape.)You have to open 1 door. No big deal. You pick one.
Nothing is behind it.
The unseen show host congratulates you, and proceeds to open 999,997 of the other doors, revealing nothing behind each of them.
Now, he gives you the option to change your selection, with the added stipulation that now two of the doors left have something besides nothing, insinuating it may be beneficial to choose a different door.
At first, all the doors were plain sky-blue solid colored.
Now, you notice, and you aren't sure when it changed, but one door that is left is Dark Crimson, one is Chartreuse, and one is glowing almost translucently with iridescent as well as soft yellow light.
