This is like an obsession. Every night, my world becomes haunted. Echoes of apparitions and demons wade through my consciousness, and then I'm taken to slumber, after enough time.
I don't have nightmares--- the whole experience is a nightmare.
I do not want this. They take from me what should not be taken.
Objection: Human condition is to need sleep. All we have is to make peace with it.
I reject this.
We need better technology. Something is keeping it from us; Whomever is running this simulation perhaps. I'm not going crazy. I'm trying to detach myself from everything
that holds me back.
I recently dreamt of this freedom. No sleep, no limits. No social systems controlling me (such as economics).
It's like mortality is an institution I've stopped believing in. I'm tired of being locked in a cell on a regular basis. What did I do to deserve this punishment. I want my freedom.
I'm a dream within a dream. I can wake up, but it keeps coming back.
And someday, it will be over...
and then what? Unknown. I'm unable to obtain a shred of lucidity.
Probably some sort of interim illusion of consciousness, followed by another existence. Just like your day to day life
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
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