last ditch effort ~ basically give up

It doesn't feel that great but it's all I have left.
The idea of being a parent in the real sense of the role is gone. It's over.
I am done with it.
I am simply symbolic.. just like my voice/vote in our fascist monopolist state.
Technically it exists but ALL meaning has been crushed out.


I asked her if being my kid's mom makes her feel important. It's a very important job, and I can't really even think of anything more important.
I won't change the world.
But he might.

For me being important and happy are together. They are the same.
I have made myself more important by relocating to live with ultra low overhead and generate as much funding productivity as I can. It is entirely separate from my duty as a parent... therein lies the darkness that falls upon me.

belonging = important to someone and many people and a cause and a tribe. Your own kids and many neighbors' and co workers'

when you belong you are happy because you have liberty. you are free to live, safe from bullying, theft, tyranny, oppression. life is just to short to fuck around with being stolen from and abused all the time.

but I am here to try and beat this corrupt system. Try to extract some resources and redistribute it.. Start something.

Put some roots down for radical sharing.

The next innovation called for in the path that we've come with technology is sharing. No innovator yet has made that their life idea.  All our Jobs, Musks, Zuckerbergs, and so forth, have been in the profit game. Tech and information age has surged. 

Now we must respond to it with the mandate: 

The wealth of the tech age MUST be put to use to ensure that housing is ultra affordable and the oppression of monopolism can no longer terrorize honest working citizens, especially not families.