rebel truthseeker

This is another comment on comprehension of myself. What might be my most defining trait. Ultra stubborn self actualization. 

Why i always have to do things my own way? Often the stupid, completely upside down and backwards way. Why am I so obtuse yet so easily amused. 


It is rebellion not simply for the sake of being different- for the sake of finding truth no one else cares to seek. A way of being that requires constant self reinvention. Re imagination. 

Overrated, underrated, and un rated are the truthseekers playgrounds. 

I feel like this is one of the most defining traits of aspie spectrum personality. For me, I feel that I am far less talented than a real aspie. But I strongly possess the truthseeker trait that defines the personality. 

That being said. 

I feel like I'm wasting my life. I am an important ally to people... Learners on the path to self understanding. My wisdom and emotional intellect is needed, direly.

I am wasting my life
in corporate hell.

I should have been a teacher. I want to teach in humanities. Art, music, writing. The skill of being human... Bearing through trauma and loss and reality with the raw power of self expression. If I hadn't been a rising master of this skill... I would not be alive today. I need to teach what I know. Acceptance. Love--- For ourselves, where it begins, and grows to love for others.